I was sitting quietly. Thinking. Breathing. Keeping to myself. You had no business coming in. I have always been alone, i understand solitude and it understands me. I chose safety. Now my heart is breaking and i never knew love. Take your hand off my chest. Please. Its heavy. You weigh on me. 877,752 minutes since you didn't stop to think. I was so sure you were real. I could touch you and feel you and taste your smooth skin. I blinked in the sunlight and you were gone. Come back. If only to collect the mess you made of my sanity. I can't remember the last time you kissed me. I hate that. The bitterness endures long after the fondness has died. I want revenge. No i don't. I want to forget. There wasn't enough time. You didn't give me time. I needed time. I built the wall. I can't rememeber the details anymore. Did you try to pull it down? It was my fault. It was your fault. I can't decide. Someone has to be to blame. It has to make sense. It feels like it will never go away. Stop me. Deliver me from my punishment. You are the weakness in me. I sleep to escape your absence. The least you could do is stay out of my dreams. If you're gone, be gone. But i am still here. You know where to find me and you won't. As long as you don't care i will. I was never wanted that way. Before you. I never wanted that way. Before you. I am naked. I am trapped. The cracks keep opening no matter how hard i glue. I've lost my voice, my passion, my talent and still you rip me up. My words are empty. My best is still my worst. I talk to the ghost of a dead man i almost loved. I am tired of carrying your rejection in my throat. Exhausted.

Repeat after me: "I could probably survive without you but i don't want to. I want you. No one else will do."

Anyone.