I want to get drunk and lose my virginity. I want to be gay. I want to be a drug addict. I want to die of a prescribed medication overdose. I want to be beautiful again. I want to forgive myself. I want you to know what I feel. I want you to feel what I feel. I want to be locked away in rehab or a nuthouse or a basement. I want to fall into an everlasting coma. I want to be anorexic. I want to be saved. I want to be normal. I want to be me. I want to fight and win. I want my Faith back. I want to feel. I want to love. I want to be brave enough to choose between life or death. I want balance. I want another chance. I want to start over. I want it to be over. I want to be diagnosed with a mortal disease. I want to drown. I want to stop crying. I want peace. I want war. I want to be mute. I want to be blind. I want to be deaf. I want to stop making lists.
posted by tin tin at 4:00 PM
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Tu podes ter tudo o que quiseres [por isso tem cuidado com o que pedes].
I want you to be ok. E quero que saibas o que vales. De uma vez por todas, se faz favor.
awake.
Sunshine, been keeping me up for days
There is no night time, it's only a passing phase
And I feel pretty, pretty enough for you
I felt so ugly before, I didn't know what to do
Sometimes is all I feel up to now
But it's not worth it to you
Cos you gotta get out somehow
It's the destruction that you require to feel
Like somebody wants you, someone that's more for real
Sunshine, been keeping me up for days
There is no night time, only a passing phase
And I'll feel pretty, another hour or two
I felt so ugly before, I didn't know what to do
I felt so ugly before, I didn't know what to do
I felt so ugly before, I didn't know what to do
Ugly before
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Be careful what you wish for because you will most certainly get it.
Too few of us recognize the power of the spoken word or the power of our minds. The things we think about all day long will come to pass.
Many of those things turn out to be things we do not want. That is why it is so important to control anger. Those things we emotionally align ourselves with and speak about are the things we get back.
It is fine if those things are positive, but what about the times you slip and speak out in anger? Do you want those things to come back?
In a very direct way these are the kinds of things you wish for. You don't have to have "I wish" in front of the subject.
That is also why those wishing for a million dollars end up in trouble when they get it. Few people recognize what happens when that kind of a windfall arrives. It is deadly, to say the least. One is far better to build up to it rather than have it dumped into your life.
Do you realize that not one person thinks they will have trouble if they won a million dollars, yet the records are staggeringly dismal. It usually ends up in broken marriages, delinquent kids, drug related incidents and altogether ruined lives. The vast majority end up like this.
Be careful what you wish for.
Those who wish for each day to be successful and happy are the ones who win. Think on this for a minute. If you wish for each day to be successful, and if you are working on your plan to become wealthy, are you not better off? Even if only seventy five percent of your days were successful you would still arrive at your destination.
That way you build up your experience of handling money. You learn the things you must do as you proceed to your objective. When you arrive you not only had fun getting there but you can have fun enjoying it without fear of ruining yours or anyone else's life.
You also have the self esteem that goes with doing it yourself, a vital ingredient for continued success, happiness, poise, power, peace and joy.
Be Careful What You Wish For!
Engraçado que não tenhas incluído na lista ser feliz. Ou isso seria o corolário de todas essas experiências?
Estóica? Não sei... nem sei se sou, nem se sou igual a ti por querer as mesmas coisas. Simplesmente deslizar e deixar que os outros se preocupem.
Passar o dia a falar comigo próprio e construir mundos e impérios na minha cabeça. É tentador, mas é viável?
Gostei do blog.
não falou de felicidade porque talvez nem haja espaço para esse desejo.
não vou querer esta tua fase marta, e tens razão nao sou eu que tenho de querer, mas as ultimas conversas que tivemos mostraram-me como tudo isto de arruinou, e eu nao o vou alimentar. Nao desta.
This blog, youre shrink, youre fridge, youre selfpity, youre embracing of a problem and youre lack of good, dead sleep, resting without contemplating, all this is directly related with what you do indeed embrace. My dear sister, you are a lovely person and undoubtedly an inteligent human being. If something is going wrong what do you do? You simply get rid of it. Dont dwell on a terrible outcome of a simple iniciative. I am no authority on any subject whatsoever and feel a certain guilt in trying to tell you what to do, but my humble(not a habit in my personality as you know so well) suggestion is that you take whats written in the first few lines and eliminate all those little details that seem only frightening in an ever revolving mind.
"Faz-me acreditar. Ganha-me.... That there, it's not me..." I would have, if it was possible. Mas não era. Não é. Isso não deixa, o que quer que sejas quando cais. Não creio que queiras, sequer. It is my belief you're not good with power, with the mere responsability of having someone obeying your every whim... allowing yourself to run amuck inside your own head like that... How easy is it to sit in awe of all you wish and desire, and hurt yourself for not actually acquiring any of it?
I've come to realize that that which pierces the skin is something that depends only on you. Like pretty much every other emotional and intellectual issue. We're still all here, waiting for the girl you sometimes are, even if briefly. Trá-la de vez por favor.
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